Sorry for that, anon ): You're right; bitches are meant to be left in the past and that's where they are. But I still have unresolved things in my present that are hard to handle. And I can't help but feeling discouraged everytime I try to get close to someone and it ends being a failure because I'm not good enough. Or, when no matter how much you show interest for the other, those feelings are never returned. As a friend said recently, it gives me the same feeling as a big party where you're dying to go but where you're both uninvited and unwanted in there...
That's not to say I don't feel blessed for those people who do show their care for me regardless of how I am. But I can't ignore this feelings, you know...jealousy? Disappointment with myself? It's a weird mix that I can't quite figure out.
Aww, I don't mind being stuck with you :P I wonder what will I get tonight, mysterious anon ~
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Date: 2010-06-21 08:19 pm (UTC)As a friend said recently, it gives me the same feeling as a big party where you're dying to go but where you're both uninvited and unwanted in there...
That's not to say I don't feel blessed for those people who do show their care for me regardless of how I am. But I can't ignore this feelings, you know...jealousy? Disappointment with myself? It's a weird mix that I can't quite figure out.
Aww, I don't mind being stuck with you :P I wonder what will I get tonight, mysterious anon ~